‘Pressure: pushing down on me’

I wonder if Queen wrote that knowing they were predicting my life?… There is pressure e v e r y w h e r e. Pressure to look perfect 24/7. Pressure to act perfect 24/7. Pressure to get 100% in every exam and piece of coursework, ever. Pressure to be in a stable relationship. Pressure…

It’s a NO from me

NOpe. NO. NOOOOOOo. NoooOO. No. Nah. NO. I hate (hate HATE hate h8) saying the dreaded word… No. Saying no means: I might hurt someone’s feelings and I cannot stand the idea of hurting someone else’s feelings Saying no means I don’t care The word itself sounds inherently rude (I don’t know why, it just…

Next stop:

It is okay not to love yourself. It is okay not to love your body. In a world where body positivity is pervasive, ‘real women’ are everywhere and love is in abundance, it can feel so disorientating, confusing and difficult to navigate how you should feel about yourself. I feel ashamed that I do not…

About time

Possible trigger warning. Please do not read this if you are in a vulnerable place.

Who knew!

I had my first therapy session for my eating disorder when I was 11. I was discharged from child services at the age of 16. During these years, one theme came up in discussion again and again… Thoughts. Specifically, my thoughts. How I viewed myself. How I valued myself. How I thought others viewed me….

Remember remember the….

Anorexia nervosa has stolen a lot. Anorexia has stolen my sense of identity, my sense of worth, my sense of importance, my happiness, my friends, my family, my education, my life… I’ve lost a lot because of anorexia. I’ve lost my health, my hair (it use to be so much thicker *cry*), my happiness, my…

It is okay.

It is okay. I promise. When was the last time you cried? And, I don’t mean a little sniffle and quick, apologetic tears. I mean, when did you last CRY (CRY… bold for emphasis)? Sobbing your heart out with snot flying everywhere is a rare occurrence for most of us (… I imagine). Do you EVER let…

My Secret Identity

Recovery from anorexia nervosa involves so much more than reestablishing a healthy relationship with food (I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again and again until everyone realises). It requires breaking old habits and learning new skills to cope with the inevitable ups and downs of life. It takes courage, dedication and patience. And,…

I am responsible

I don’t know where this post is going exactly but I’d quite like to babble on about the 2 R’s: … recovery and RESPONSIBILITY. A year ago, if someone had mentioned the words anorexia nervosa and responsibility in the same sentence, I would have scoffed at them… Take responsibility for a mental illness that I…

The greatest revolution yet…

You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. You are enough. Tattoo it onto your brain. Not only are you ‘enough’, but you are more than that… 300: that’s how many words the…