Em can (me to me)

Long time no blog!! I haven’t blogged in a looOng time, I haven’t felt the urge to, or the want! Tbh, I’ve felt lost. Lost, directionless and purposeless. My brain has felt like a big ball of contradictions (do you remember those big rubber band balls.. that’s how my brain has felt recently). Exhibit A…

Tired

And, I am tired of being reduced. I am tired of following your narrative. I don’t want to reduce myself to nothing. You already did that. But, it is time for me to reclaim myself.

The other side!

Anorexia nervosa has brought me a lot of pain. It has given me 11 years of shame , guilt, distrust, unhappiness and disappointment. It has ruined relationships with my family and friends. It has ruined my education (well, temporarily… back @ it now yAay). It has ruined my hair. It has ruined my confidence. It…

The magic number 4

It’s easy for me to see this from my perspective because I’m the one recovering from anorexia nervosa BUT but ButT, I don’t think these are necessarily obvious to anyone else so… Anorexia nervosa, my eating disorder [disclaimer (!!!): I’ve said MY because everyone experiences eating disorders differently and I don’t want anyone to think…

Am I mental?

I believe it’s important to talk about our mental health. Actually no, I don’t believe it is ‘important’, I think it is needed. I believe it is NECESSARY to talk about our mental health. Talking saves lives. Talking saves lives. Talking saves lives. In the last few decades, mental illness has shed some of its…

#bekind

Being kind is ALWAYS a necessity and especially so in these crazZy times. Up and down the country (and globally) we have seen thousands of acts of kindness during this pandemic. If we show kindness in everything we do, it has the potential to be the most compelling force. It is driven by empathy and understanding, and it is demonstrated in what we say and what we think. We have a choice, we can ignore the lessons from Covid-19 and continue as we were pre-pandemic, or we can take the hope from the kindness during this time and use it as a basis to look at our world afresh. We have the power to decide whether we want to put kindness to ourselves n others at the heart of our new normal.

My biggest motivator

… And, that’s when I realised why I wanted to go into the medical profession, the mental health setting particularly, because I can’t think of anything more rewarding than knowing I might be helping someone, giving someone hope and reminding them that life is ALWAYS worth the journey. Your life is precious. Your story is precious. And, you are adding words to your story every single day, whether or not you know it. Your story is special. YOU are special.

Should I care??

‘In life, our fucks must be spent on something. There really is no such thing as not giving a fuck. The question is simply how we each choose to allot our fucks. You only get a limited number of fucks to give over your lifetime, so you must spend them with care. As my father used to say, “Fucks don’t grow on trees, Mark.” OK, he never actually said that. But fuck it, pretend like he did. The point is that fucks have to be earned and then invested wisely.’